Misguided

I never claimed to be great at relationships. I mean hello, look at my parents, but I am at a loss now because i feel that for once i am not the one doing all the things to screw it up. i mean dont get me wrong i fuck up a lot, but theres trying to fix it and pretending to try and i know im trying, i think he just might not even want to at this point, and right now i can deal with that, but soon it will probably cause me to lose my mind. I love him to death but i only bend so far before i break and when i break the blow out tends to be epic. meaning outright frightening. too much thinking going on and not enough knowing of what to do here. i need guidance, thats for damn sure lol.